ATTACHMENT

I have always heard from religious people and read from scriptures that attachment is the root cause of individual soul’s misery. I always tried to keep any kind of attachments away from my heart. And like many people I was able to falsely satisfy myself that I have succeeded in my aim. But subsequent to attaining the height of my false belief, the circumstances showed me that I was not right. I was as oriented towards various worldly attachments as anyone else. Then the hereditary feature of humans activated itself inside me. This is the feature where by people satisfy themselves with the status quo and try to justify their stand and ability. And then again I tried to prove myself better than many others by saying that I was just a victim of circumstances… by saying that I was just following what God has forced me to follow… by saying that I have not created any further attachments by myself… by saying that I was not going further deep into existing attachments and was keeping myself away from certain subjects about which I used to feel are more attracting and alluring to others. (Before I proceed further I would like to clarify that my basic premise of treating attachments as a root cause of individual soul’s misery is not just a result of blind faith in what I read or hear… it is to a great extent is a result of my empirical study of human nature and real life observations.) However it seems that God has vowed to prove me wrong all the time… I am not complaining about my bad luck nor do I intend to say that God is unjust… But the fact remains that I am being proved wrong repeatedly by circumstances. Perhaps it is the illusive grace of God about which I have heard and according to which He does not allow bigheadedness of His seekers. As a result quite obviously I was made to realize my mistake in practical. And here I stand no better than an ordinary man who does not know the result of worldly attachments. Instead I am worse than that ordinary man…. Because that ordinary man who does not know enjoys his being attached to world… but I cannot. Hardly I feel satisfaction because of this. It is getting more and more difficult to see the one’s dreams shattering before one’s eyes. I don’t want to sound depressing but it is reality. Suggestions have been made by many to skip this but hard to put into practice. Don’t know what to do.