Change in Mind... not change of it..

I have presented myself before my reader…. I hope there are few… after a long time. Lots of water has flown down the Ganges since then. And similarly lots of thoughts have passed through my mind since that time. Sometimes I think of the decisions I have taken in my life and then I think whether these decisions are right or wrong. Earlier it wasn’t the case. I used to have a rigid kind of mind which used to get closed the moment I have taken a decision. There was no point of rethink…. or perhaps there were no such decisions taken by me which had a long term bearing on my life. So there was no need of rethink. But now the time and circumstances have changed and it’s the time to take such decisions which have long term repercussions. Right from the day this time came, my situation became messy. Messy because of the fact I have mentioned about my past habit of decision making. I don’t find myself this much able to have a correct and perfect decision in the first place and then my past habit restrains me from revising that imperfect, incorrect decision. One may think it is not such a difficult task to change one’s mind…. but it’s not the case with me…. or at least it seems so at present to me. Don’t know how to handle this situation………….